I have nothing to say to people. I'm genuinely not interested in most of what people have to talk about. Pop Culture is as appealing to me as a pile of dirt. At least I can play in a pile of dirt. Movies, music, TV, books, sports, politics, religion, cars, gaming - blegh. Take no offense but I'm also not interested in peoples personal lives. I don't have much going on in mine. Small talk is also challenging for me. When you're done with the weather, the holidays, and favorite foods, what then?
I live in my head. Have you ever heard anyone say that before? I just googled it and the top result is www.depressionhaven.org. I'm not depressed. I've got the normal level of human anxiety, that's it. I'm generally happy. It's pretty cozy and snug in my head. I also don't like to let people inside. There's nothing shameful going on in there, I'd just rather not talk about my fantasies as a super villain because I like to play things close to the vest.
When I think about making friends and/or finding prospective girlfriends, it occurs to me that the like-minded people I'd be suited to are doing exactly what I' doing: Daydreaming indoors. That's where we all are and I'll never meet any of them because the probability that we happen to be out at the same place at the same time is astronautical. If we make eye contact and start talking we won't have anything to say. Then we'll go our separate ways. The end.
What I need is a label I and others like me can identify as. Something that can't be hijacked like nerd or geek has been. "Hi, I'm Josh. I'm a passive, creative, intelligent introvert" doesn't really do it and when I say introvert I mean it. I don't like people. I'm not a misanthrope, but I don't seek people's company or enjoy social gatherings. In fact I generally see these things as an interruption. As a human, I'm still a creature who needs to socialize, but I like it on a much smaller scale. Intimate comes to mind.
Click here for a very good explanation on introversion. Click here for a short, comprehensive list.
